Someday We'll Know

I hope its appropriate for me to post this.

Yesterday night, crystal recounted to me on an event that happened in the evening. She and her roommate were going out for dinner, when her roommate received a call from her mum in the Netherlands. She was informed that her father was in critical condition. I was told, she broke down crying and started packing her bags to return home but her mother insisted she stayed.

As we were walking back to the university, contemplating the frailties of life, it never occured to me that sometimes things strike closer to home.

I went back and sent an email home after a reminder from my dearest karen. Turns out, I have not been sending emails back for more than a month. Time sure flies here...

So I got the email sent in a routine procedure before going to study and sleep. This morning, I got an email back from my mum who told me my dad was hospitalised for internal bleeding a few weeks back. It totally broke my heart. First thing that shot into my mind was how incompetent I was as a son, to be so late to know, oblivious to such a catastrophy. Second thing that slowly ebbed into my consciousness...was how helpless I was in somewhere far away. Unable to hear reassurance of my father's health. Or how my family was coping.

Some things are just strange. 2 sons in Singapore and nothing ever happens for the longest time. 2 of them leave for overseas and something like that happens. Its just low on probability ya' know?

I ran out of coherent things to type. My mind is pretty scrambled right now. uh, enjoy your lives people. For my friends studying, enjoy your exams too.